Be Happy

My husband said something to me yesterday that really, really disturbed me.

I used to be a terrible tv junkie...talk shows in the morning, soaps and Oprah in the afternoon, 3 hours of prime time, plus rented movie videos. It was such a waste of time, and I realized it was an addiction, so about a year ago I stopped.

My most favorite tv show was Alias. Giving that one up was the hardest! The other day we rented the whole last season of the show, and started watching them. I was so shocked at my physical reaction to watching the show! I guess its like an addict relapsing!! I had butterflies, and adrenaline pumping though my body, my eyes were all wide and I had a goofy smile pasted on my face. It was the best thing ever, and I still have 3 more discs to watch!

Anyways, back to my husband's comment. The next morning he said to me, "You were so excited watching Alias! That's the happiest I've seen you in a year!". As soon as he said that, my ears perked up. Happiest in a year?? I'm happy, aren't I? I would say I'm very content with everything I have. I sure am thankful...the Lord definitely provides and blesses our family even though we are undeserving. But I tried to think about the last time I was really happy; happy enough for it to show through my face. Big, silly smile or an uncontrollable laugh...I became quite upset because I truly could not remember the last time I was happy. Lately I've really struggled with the repetitive routine of being a stay-at-home mom, and since my miscarriage I have been a little blue, but I think I've made it a habit to not be happy. I definitely have plenty to be happy about. So I've decided to be more happy; happy enough so that it shows through my face. I'm off to find something to laugh about. Have a happy day!